Family members keep asking me what I want for Christmas. In years past…I would have a list ready. You know, the cute little sweater I had my eye on…the latest kitchen gadget that will look pretty and remain unused because everyone knows that I don’t cook…maybe my latest favorite music…
Yet, this year…nothing. Nothing, that is, that can be wrapped and placed under my Christmas tree.
One of my new favorite blogs is The Gypsy Mama…such wonderful writing and some great spiritual insights. Recently, I read this post and it has had me thinking ever since…thinking about expectations…things I want…things I have thought I wanted in the past…
I commented on that post..I, too, have recently been obsessed with things I want…things that I tell myself would make me happier. My prayer this week has been that I would be satisfied with Him.
That I would be satisfied with Him…Those words…my words…have just been rolling around in my head.
But, God, this is not how I envisioned my life…That I would be satisfied with Him.
You don’t understand, God, I have this unfulfilled desire…That I would be satisfied with Him.
The hurt, though, is too much…That I would be satisfied with Him…
The thing about learning Scripture is that it becomes embedded in your mind and in your heart. When you need it, His Word is immediately there…verses you memorized years ago come back to comfort you. However, I have found that they also come back to convict you…to remind you of what it is you are supposed to be seeking…what it is that is supposed to bring you fulfillment.
Every time I have whined expressed to the Lord my frustration, my hurt, my anger at a situation…my longing for something more than what I have…this verse has repeatedly come to my mind…
My lips will glorify You because Your faithful love is better than life. You satisfy me as with rich food... – Psalm 63:3,5 HCSB
That I would be satisfied with Him…That I would allow Him to satisfy me.
His love…His faithful love…is better than anything that life has to offer. And He satisfies…
He is enough…
Stacy – this is so powerful. You have challenged me with my own words. And I love how you put it, “However, I have found that they also come back to convict you…to remind you of what it is you are supposed to be seeking…”
That is so true – often we look for shallow comfort from Scripture and instead we are challenged to dig deeper – into ourselves!
Thank you for this,
Lisa-Jo
good thoughts, Stacy