I’m into Exodus now on my journey through the Bible and I’m very excited about what God is going to show me as I seek to know Him more…
Moses. If you ask my Emily who Moses is, she will tell you “He’s the baby in the basket.” What a start to his life. The baby, loved by his mother, protected by his sister and raised by Pharoah’s daughter. So many Hebrew baby boys were killed by Pharoah’s people, but Moses was saved. Moses was saved by God who had big plans for the baby in the basket…
Moses had sinned. He had killed another man. Though, at the time, he thought no one had seen…they had. Finding out that others had witnessed the murder, Moses fears for his own life and flees to the land of Midian. The baby in the basket had become a murderer in hiding. Yet, this is where God speaks to him.
God tells Moses that He is going to use him to bring the Israelites out of Egypt.
The Israelite cry for help has come to me, and I’ve seen for myself how cruelly they’re being treated by the Egyptians. It’s time for you to go back: I’m sending you to Pharaoh to bring my people, the People of Israel, out of Egypt. – Exodus 3:9-10
This story is very reminiscent of Jacob. Jacob had lied to his father, cheated his brother and had to flee from his home. God, however, sent him back. The same with Moses. You can’t hide here forever, Moses. I have a plan for your life and a job for you to do. It’s time for you to go back. If we want to be used by God, we have to come out of hiding. We have to leave our places of comfort behind.
When I read the conversation that took place between God and Moses I laugh…and cringe. I swear He and I have had that same dialogue.
God: This is what I want you to do.
Moses: Who? Me? Why should I be the one?
God: It’s not about you. I will be with you.
Moses: They’re going to ask questions about you.
God: Tell them who I am.
Moses: What if they don’t believe me?
God: I will enable you to perform signs to convince them.
Moses: But, Lord, I am not able to do it.
God: I made you, Moses.
Moses: Please send someone else.
Here is where I cringe. God had been more than patient…addressing all of Moses’ excuses and insecurities. Still, Moses is arguing…and then…
God got angry with Moses… – Exodus 4:14
I have no doubt that God has gotten to this point with me. I beg to be used by Him. I beg for some direction. I beg for Him to speak to me. Then, when He does, I immediately remind Him of my every flaw. I give Him every reason why I can not do the thing He is asking. I beg him to send someone else.
However, an amazing thing has happened over the last couple of months. I no longer want God to use someone else. I want Him to use me. I want to step out, in all my flaws and insecurities, and be used. After all, it isn’t about me anyway. It’s all about Him.